Update about Alice's eyes

Alice has been going to the ophthalmologist regularly since her Cranio surgery. They first brought up concern with her eyes when she was about 2 years old. The doctor wanted to operate but we tried alternative options. We tried some vision therapy exercises on and off for a while. It seemed to help but the problem never went away. I started noticing it getting worse again recently so I brought her back in to get checked. They recommended surgery again but this time on both eyes. Her main problem is V pattern exotropia. Her eyes are just not working well together. It's very common for children with Craniosynostosis to have eye problems, specifically the kind that Alice has, Left Coronal Craniosynostosis. 

It isn't easy putting her through more surgery, that's why I've tried to put it off for so long but I knew she needed to have it done. I was sick as can be leading up to it, even though I knew it was so much smaller than her Cranio surgery, it didn't make it any less nerve wracking. 

She had surgery yesterday April 14th. She was incredibly brave but did talk to me a lot leading up to the surgery date and asked lots of questions. They worked on 2 muscles in one eye and one muscle in the other eye. She was a trooper and did amazingly well. She barely even shed a tear, even though I know she hurts. She woke up and said “That wasn’t so bad” I swear these cranio kids are so tough! My other kids definitely wouldn't have handled it so well. 

She was in bed most of the day after surgery and wouldn't eat. She was hurting and her throat was bothering her from surgery. I finally got some applesauce in her before she went to bed last night. She woke up hungry this morning with a little better appetite. She was pretty puffy and her eyes were very red this morning. She had a post op appointment today. They took measurements and did eye tests. She is having some double vision periodically but overall she had a great report and expect her to heal well. Her eye alignment measurements were much improved. She will follow up in 6 weeks and we will know her final results then. It could take up to 2 weeks to heal and the redness to go away. Thank you all for your prayers and concern, it means a lot. 

example of V Pattern exotropia

7 years post op

Happy Cranioversary to our sweet girl!

I'm not sure how it's possible that it's been 7 years since that emotional July day. She's doing amazing and we are so grateful that we were able to find a doctor that would perform the endoscopic surgery on her. If I could do it all over again, I wouldn't change a thing. My gut instinct led me to fight for the endoscopic surgery and I know it was the right decision for her. I pray that she continues to do well and that her journey with 'Craniosynostosis' is in the past. Here'a a little throwback vs this year on July 4th. She's getting so big!

July 4th 2020

2013 - a week before surgery

“Something is wrong with my eyebrows”

I knew it would happen one day, the day she’d look in the mirror and ‘see it’.  Left/Right Coronal Craniosynostosis and the asymmetry it causes is much more obvious in the mirror image. Tonight when getting ready for bed she looked in the mirror and said, “Something is wrong with my eyebrows, they look weird”.  I asked her what she meant. She said “One is higher than the other one” We have talked to her about the surgery and how the doctors ‘fixed her head’ but not in a lot of detail. I told her that the Craniosynostosis was on the left side of her head so the left side may not look exactly like the right side and that she was beautiful.

We always said that if her asymmetry bothered her as she got older, then we would address that then. We will see but we are thankful she has done so well and hasn’t ‘needed’ any other surgery.
With that being said, I wanted to follow up about her eye condition. As of now, we are just waiting it out and seeing how her eyes do. They seem to have improved so we are not rushing into surgery. If it starts to get bad again and bothers her then we will revisit that option.

I hope everyone is doing well and staying healthy in these crazy times.

I ordered this shirt a couple years ago from Cranio Care Bears and had forgotten about it until recently 💕 

I can’t believe our sweet girl is 7. As I edited her birthday pictures, reality hit. Picture after picture I couldn’t deny what I was seeing...

Last week I took Alice to the ophthalmologist because of concerns. Just when I think we are in the clear, I get a reminder that craniosynostosis will follow Alice forever. Alice will very likely be having eye surgery in the near future. She started having very noticeable problems again about a month ago. The drifting has gotten bad and it’s really bothering her. I am so reluctant and just want to avoid the surgery but my gut is telling me she needs to have this done.

When she was cleared a while back, it was because she was able to control the drifting. She could pull it back in on cue. So they said she no longer needed the surgery. Now it is happening so often and she is not controlling it well. I don’t want her being bothered by it and blinking constantly. We’ve tried some vision therapy stuff (like we did before) but it hasn’t helped yet. We are going to give it more time then make a decision. 

I tried so hard to hold back the tears in the office that day. The word ‘surgery’ just triggered me. I couldn’t fight the tears. Every time I talk about it, I cry. The thought of her having to go through something else, after having such a big surgery when she was a baby, just kills me. No parent likes the thought of their kid being put under anesthesia. The thought of my other kids having surgery on anything is upsetting as well, this just triggers me in a different way. It’s so hard to put into words how it makes me feel. I know this is a very small surgery compared to her craniosynostosis surgery but it doesn’t make it easier. I knew my friend in Texas would understand how I am feeling so I messaged her right away. Her son also had surgery for craniosynostosis when he was a baby so she “gets it”. She wishes, like I do, that we could just put this all behind us. 

It took me a week to find the words. Just wanted to give a quick update Please keep her in your thoughts. I will keep you posted. 

Happy 7th Birthday Alice!

Can’t believe this sweet thing is 7 years old!

Long overdo update

Hey everyone! I apologize for such a long gap in posting. Time is just flying by!

It's hard to believe Alice will be 7 years old in a couple of months. I remember in the beginning of this journey, it seemed like time moved SO slow. Waiting for a diagnosis was agonizing, then waiting for the surgery date, in tears everyday...then the LONG year in the helmet. I'm not sure how time has flown by since then but it has and here we are with a sweet, beautiful smart little girl who made it through and is doing amazingly well. I am so thankful that I listened to my gut instinct and pushed for the endoscopic surgery. If I had to do it all over again, I would still make the same decision.

We took Alice for another opinion a while back. It was actually the first neurosurgeon that diagnosed her at VCU, Dr Gary Tye. We wanted to hear his thoughts all of these years later. He had ZERO concerns. The plastic surgeon also came into the appointment. She took pictures and told us she thought she looked great. She did mention that at any time in the future we wanted to do a small 'fill in' surgery, we could always do that but they both agreed that the average person would never know she had anything wrong. She still has a small indentation on her forehead but it has come SO far since she came out of that helmet. Of course we see it, because we know what she went through but to this day Alice has never asked about anything looking different. She knows about the surgery and the helmet but has never seen anything in the mirror that she questioned. So we will follow up as needed as far as her cranio.

We also had a followup at the ophthalmologist. They thoroughly examined her and said that she had outgrown the eye problem that she had and that she no longer needed to have the surgery to have it corrected. Oh my goodness that was a relief. Again, I followed that mommy gut instinct and chose not to have the surgery. We did some simple eye exercises with her and she ended up outgrowing the issue. I am not the type that's going to immediately jump and do exactly what the doctor says. I will get second and third opinions and do my own research for my child. I do the same for myself with issues I've had in recent years. I try my best to avoid surgical intervention unless it's absolutely necessary. Thankfully Alice was able to avoid the surgery and is doing well. I pray that she will continue doing well. She is a healthy, normal little girl and I'm so proud to be her Mom.

Thank you to all of you that take the time to read my blog. I appreciate your comments and messages so much. All I wanted when I started was to help other parents that were in my shoes. I truly hope it has.

We took Alice to Disney World for her first time about a month ago. Here is a picture of her with Jasmine and Aladdin. Seeing that smile just melts my heart.

4 years post op - neurosurgeon appointment

Alice is a little over 4 years post op. (surgery date- July 12, 2013)
Each year near her "Cranioversary'  I take photos of her, so that I can document her progress.
Here are a couple from July 2017.

Alice had a followup today with her neurosurgeon, Dr Magge. It's been almost a year since we had seen him. We were past due to see him, she should have seen him in the Spring. This was the longest we have gone without seeing him since her surgery. I was very anxious to say the least.

I know many look at her and don't know she ever had surgery or the ones that do know may think 'she had surgery, she's fixed now' The thing is, her skull isn't 'normal' like the average skull. Yes he made room for her brain to grow but he will continue to follow her into her teenage years. 

Why? He's monitoring the growth of her skull, making sure it charts within normal range and that growth doesn't slow down. If it does, then that would be a red flag. Dr Magge also wants her to continue to be monitored every year by an ophthalmologist and checked for Papilledema, which is the swelling of the optic nerve as it enters the back of the eye due to raised intracranial pressure, which would be a red flag also. This is all pretty standard for most cranio children. 

Dr Magge took several measurements today of her head. Her head on the left side is about 12mm less than the right side. But her head growth is good overall, continuing to progress on the growth curve. He did discuss how he could surgically fix the left side of her forehead, an orbital advancement, an ear to ear incision, basically a reconstruction of the front part of her skull, forehead and eye sockets BUT I just can't put her through something like that solely for a cosmetic reason, I would only agree if it was medically necessary, meaning signs of intracranial pressure.

I talked to him about how I read that when the sinuses start to form, that things will improve even more, physically. He looked at me and smiled and said " I forget I'm talking to the cranio expert" lol. No I am definitely not an expert but I am very knowledgeable on the subject since June of 2013, I have done TONS of reading. He does think things will continue to improve for many years to come, as she gets older.

Overall it was a great checkup. I will always worry about her but I feel a little sense of relief after seeing him again after so long. I am so thankful she was able to have this less invasive endoscopic surgery and that she is doing so well. She has no delays and is a very smart little girl. Her head/face is not perfectly symmetrical but who's is, cranio or no cranio.

We followup with him again in one year. 

Facts about endoscopic surgery

The one thing I have tried to do is just stick to the known facts about endoscopic surgery when trying to help others. I had to research so much to get accurate factual information (instead of opinions being thrown at me) The main reason I started this blog was to make it easier to find information about endoscopic surgery. I take this same approach on social media and on support groups. All I want to do is highlight the benefits of endoscopic surgery and make people more aware that it can be done up to six months of age. I genuinely want to help people. I have learned SO much in the past 4 years since Alice was first diagnosed and I just want to share what I know.

Dr Mark Proctor is a well known neurosurgeon in Boston. Alice was scheduled to have surgery with him initially however insurance denied it because they found a doctor closer to us that would do endoscopic surgery on her. He trained under Dr Proctor, so it was a huge blessing.
Dr Proctor did a study about the benefits of endoscopic surgery for each type of craniosynostosis. This is based on his actual experience, about actual cases. It is very informative and full of FACTS. He offers both types of surgeries. I do feel like everyone needs to see a doctor that offers both types of surgeries or get 2nd or even 3rd opinions.
Here is a link to the article...
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4729850/

Since my daughter had unicoronal (left coronal) I need to point out how much I agree with this study. Everything that is stated has been true for our case. Dr Proctor states one of the early benefits of endoscopic surgery for coronal babies is that the nose and mouth asymmetry starts to correct quickly after surgery. Yes! It does, that is one of the first things we noticed. It was amazing to see how things shifted so quickly after the suture was opened like it should be. Also in the before picture of Alice, her left eye socket was significantly larger than her right one. This was also corrected. The brow bone correction is slower with endoscopic surgery, but I was ok with that. Knowing that immediately after surgery, my daughter's brain had room to grow. I didn't have to wait and worry for months wondering if she had pressure and also continue to watch her facial features worsen. The flattening on her brow has continued to improve each year, just as Dr Proctor stated. You have to be patient. I understand that's hard, but it is amazing to see the changes. Endoscopic surgery is a pretty natural approach, it essentially recreates the suture so that the brain can grow without being restricted. The helmet then helps to shape the skull.

The before and after photos speak for themselves,
It is truly amazing to see how far she has come.

With that being said, when searching for a surgeon who offers endoscopic surgery please make sure they are experienced. A HUGE component in the outcome of your child's results is helmet therapy. For coronal babies it is very important that they stay in the helmet for as long as possible. Alice wore hers until she was 18 months old (1 year post op) Helmet therapy is crucial after having endoscopic surgery..

This a video I made and poem I wrote for Alice's 3 year Cranioversary (3 years post op)
It shows her progress over the years. I thought I would share again.